i have loved too much
and in fear and in need and loudly and obscenely. loved when there was no love to give
loved the undeserved
i was undeserving…too.
loved in hate and anger. loved in some of the most disgusting and pitiful…the most demeaning ways.
i have loved in lies. lied in love.
held onto those who loved me just to feed off their love in an attempt to preserve my own.